OK, so I get on here and do some ranting, raving and carrying on about what I think all the time. I would like to try something different... This woman whom I know only by internet, has agreed to do an interview sometime. What I would like to do is have some others comment on this entry she posted from her myspace page.
Post your analysis about her thoughts and feelings expressed in this bulletin entry. She has thick skin so feel free to say what you want. However if she does request me to delete a comment I will. lets all take a few minutes to analyze her emotions. Then I will interview her via myspace IM and post it on here. The interview will cover topics in the comments as well as whatever else I come up with. She is prepared to speak her mind... The title of this entry is also the title of her Bulletin...
Her Bulletin Entry on her MySpace Page:
I'm going to take a bath...
I don't know that it is that I don't feel it, or that I feel SO MUCH that I push it all down or away or some other place so that I don't have to deal with it. I feel things slip right through my hands, and what do I do about it?? Nothing. I watch it go. The fight in me is dead. And there are ways around feelings. Its easy to drown thoughts and feelings and reality. Its easier to ignore once you have lived through it, especially if you have lived through it again, and again, and again. What happened to the person I was supposed to be? Where did she go? Why doesn't she stay long when she does come around? How long will I wait for it to make sense when there is no sense to be made?
Look at the days passing. Time is here and gone. And what have I to show for it? What have I accomplished? Where is my passion? Where is my laughter? Where are my tears? My eyes are so dry, my heart is so grey. I need to love the life I live. I need to make passion, and laugh until I cry. I need to realize. I need to breathe it, taste it, see it, feel it, hold it, break it, own it, lose it, love it, hate it, fight it, embrace it. All these things I say I never do. There are things I feel this for. And moments of peace, of sanity, of completion. Flashes of color. Fire. How do you hold onto a moment in time?
End of her bulletin.
You tell me...
TDK
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Sunday, February 25, 2007
NASCAR Fans and Gamers
For the Fans...
First let me start by saying that NASCAR's lucky dog rule needs improvement. I don't like it, but it is for the drivers safety. Racing back to the line is much better for us fans, and it also gives driver's a chance to improve their track position.
Regardless, I think it should stay because of its safety value, however it can be improved.
Prior to the lucky dog rule. Driver's 2 or more laps down could also earn a lap back if they could pass the lead car before getting back to the start / finish line.
What I would like to see is the lead car 1 lap down, two laps down, 3 laps down and so on, to get one lap back. and make it the lucky dogs rule. Because it is possible that a car 3 laps down was actually closer to earning a lap back.
For the Gamers...
Anyway on to my real complaint EA Sport's NASCAR game.
There are some things i actually like better about the 2004 game than the 2007. There are things that can be used from each game and options that can be included that aren't to improve the game. Keep in mind, that I play 99% in career mode and that is what this applies to.
EA SPORTS NASCAR Thunder 2004
PROS
You race back to the line at a caution.
The damage is more realistic.
Even a race at 10% length has multiple pit stops. That is awesome!
The car blow a fuel cell or engine if you don't take care of your car.
You can race 100% length if you wish to in career mode.
You don't have to start out on dirt and race about two seasons to make your debut in NEXTEL CUP.
You can name your race team.
You have to race the track, limited aids in career mode - you can't just hold the gas down from start to finish on every track.
There are markers at the bottom of the screen indicating who is approaching you from behind.
The stats on this game are great... you can see winner of each race for the season, career wins, top 5's and 10's, poles.
CONS
You have multiple cars in your garage but not on the track as team mates when you own your own team. So you can't have teammates when you own your own team.
You can not get a package deal as a team owner. If you accept a package sponsor, you are then racing for another team.
Too much time spent building your team up, your garage, fabricators.
EA SPORTS NASCAR 2007
PROS
The game play is much better.
You can communicate with teammates.
You get more than 3 offers when a contract expires. Well you get what you deserve for offers. If your racing good, everyone wants you driving their car.
Under caution, your crew chief will tell you if you need to pit.
CONS
The damage is not as good or accurate as before. Like in one of my races, I hit the wall head on at pit road and all it did was cause a caution, my car was fine. I was pushed into it at over 100 MPH to a dead stop. A car will not survive that impact.
If you do manage to wreck your car. You have to drive a teammates car to finish the race.
You can not race a full race on career mode.
There is only one pit stop per race.
If you buy a team you can not change the name of the team.
You can not build your own team.
You have to start on the dirt track, then the truck series, then the Busch Series, then NEXTEL Cup.
Daytona 500 you can not qualify for Busch series and run in the Gatorade 150.
Stats are no good, almost non existent.
THE NEXT NASCAR GAME... Make it a number one seller!
What I would like to see in NASCAR 08 or 09.
Build your own team or buy a team and be able to change the name of the team.
Also if you build your own team you should be able to get up to 4 cars, that might take half of your career
Not so much time spent on building your shop or team up to be competitive.
Make driving the track itself competitive by having less computer aids, in 2007 you never have to let off the gas, it brakes completely for you.
The knowledge of you crew chief and ability of your pit crew, should effect the race.
So hiring and firing pit crews is important. Of course you should be able to set it to CPU if you want to.
You should be able to get a package sponsor for the team you own without switching to another team.
You should still get offers to drive from other teams.
You should be able to hire and fire other drivers on the team that you own.
Bring on the COT, get the new car in the game.
Make it multi player, even offline, in career mode.
Race back to the start / finish line or lucky dog, should be a toggle option.
Cautions should take laps off if racing 10% or more.
Races !0% -19% in length should have multiple pit stops, probably 2.
Races 20% or more should have 4 pit stops. That changes the whole strategy of the game throughout each race.
Races are never effected by weather, as we have seen several times this season, they are EVERY week. Let's face it, weather is a big part of NASCAR.
DO NOT make us spend 8 seasons to be competitive.
Bring the stats back, like in 2004.
Base the game on racing good on the tracks in different weather conditions and the ability of your pit crew and the knowledge of your crew chief, your crew chief should tell you when to pit. And your team should set your car up for you, atleast pretty damn close.
Put the DAMN beer / liquor sponsors on the cars.
Put some announcers back in the game, like in 2004
I like vintage NASCAR...
The races from days of old... where you can try to repeat or change history, should have cars and tracks that represent that era... like 1974 Bristol with hardly no stands and 1974 model cars.
You tell me...
-TDK
First let me start by saying that NASCAR's lucky dog rule needs improvement. I don't like it, but it is for the drivers safety. Racing back to the line is much better for us fans, and it also gives driver's a chance to improve their track position.
Regardless, I think it should stay because of its safety value, however it can be improved.
Prior to the lucky dog rule. Driver's 2 or more laps down could also earn a lap back if they could pass the lead car before getting back to the start / finish line.
What I would like to see is the lead car 1 lap down, two laps down, 3 laps down and so on, to get one lap back. and make it the lucky dogs rule. Because it is possible that a car 3 laps down was actually closer to earning a lap back.
For the Gamers...
Anyway on to my real complaint EA Sport's NASCAR game.
There are some things i actually like better about the 2004 game than the 2007. There are things that can be used from each game and options that can be included that aren't to improve the game. Keep in mind, that I play 99% in career mode and that is what this applies to.
EA SPORTS NASCAR Thunder 2004
PROS
You race back to the line at a caution.
The damage is more realistic.
Even a race at 10% length has multiple pit stops. That is awesome!
The car blow a fuel cell or engine if you don't take care of your car.
You can race 100% length if you wish to in career mode.
You don't have to start out on dirt and race about two seasons to make your debut in NEXTEL CUP.
You can name your race team.
You have to race the track, limited aids in career mode - you can't just hold the gas down from start to finish on every track.
There are markers at the bottom of the screen indicating who is approaching you from behind.
The stats on this game are great... you can see winner of each race for the season, career wins, top 5's and 10's, poles.
CONS
You have multiple cars in your garage but not on the track as team mates when you own your own team. So you can't have teammates when you own your own team.
You can not get a package deal as a team owner. If you accept a package sponsor, you are then racing for another team.
Too much time spent building your team up, your garage, fabricators.
The markers above a car when you are sharing draft block your view of the track ahead.
Cars behind you do not draft you. The only way to draft with someone is to get behind them.
EA SPORTS NASCAR 2007
PROS
The game play is much better.
You can communicate with teammates.
You get more than 3 offers when a contract expires. Well you get what you deserve for offers. If your racing good, everyone wants you driving their car.
Under caution, your crew chief will tell you if you need to pit.
CONS
The damage is not as good or accurate as before. Like in one of my races, I hit the wall head on at pit road and all it did was cause a caution, my car was fine. I was pushed into it at over 100 MPH to a dead stop. A car will not survive that impact.
If you do manage to wreck your car. You have to drive a teammates car to finish the race.
You can not race a full race on career mode.
There is only one pit stop per race.
If you buy a team you can not change the name of the team.
You can not build your own team.
You have to start on the dirt track, then the truck series, then the Busch Series, then NEXTEL Cup.
Daytona 500 you can not qualify for Busch series and run in the Gatorade 150.
Stats are no good, almost non existent.
THE NEXT NASCAR GAME... Make it a number one seller!
What I would like to see in NASCAR 08 or 09.
Build your own team or buy a team and be able to change the name of the team.
Also if you build your own team you should be able to get up to 4 cars, that might take half of your career
Not so much time spent on building your shop or team up to be competitive.
Make driving the track itself competitive by having less computer aids, in 2007 you never have to let off the gas, it brakes completely for you.
The knowledge of you crew chief and ability of your pit crew, should effect the race.
So hiring and firing pit crews is important. Of course you should be able to set it to CPU if you want to.
You should be able to get a package sponsor for the team you own without switching to another team.
You should still get offers to drive from other teams.
You should be able to hire and fire other drivers on the team that you own.
Bring on the COT, get the new car in the game.
Make it multi player, even offline, in career mode.
Race back to the start / finish line or lucky dog, should be a toggle option.
Cautions should take laps off if racing 10% or more.
Races !0% -19% in length should have multiple pit stops, probably 2.
Races 20% or more should have 4 pit stops. That changes the whole strategy of the game throughout each race.
Races are never effected by weather, as we have seen several times this season, they are EVERY week. Let's face it, weather is a big part of NASCAR.
DO NOT make us spend 8 seasons to be competitive.
Bring the stats back, like in 2004.
Base the game on racing good on the tracks in different weather conditions and the ability of your pit crew and the knowledge of your crew chief, your crew chief should tell you when to pit. And your team should set your car up for you, atleast pretty damn close.
Put the DAMN beer / liquor sponsors on the cars.
Put some announcers back in the game, like in 2004
I like vintage NASCAR...
The races from days of old... where you can try to repeat or change history, should have cars and tracks that represent that era... like 1974 Bristol with hardly no stands and 1974 model cars.
You tell me...
-TDK
Friday, February 16, 2007
Pro Athletes Striking
Today In History, this is at the bottom of this blog and I usually check it out to see if there is anything to write about, well today there was...
2005 - The National Hockey League cancelled its entire season after a five-month lockout.
I think it is bullshit when pro athletes STRIKE for more money, benefits or whatever. When you make hundreds of thousands of dollars per year to PLAY your favorite sport. I think it is bullshit that they dare strike. I know recently Baseball has done it and Football in the past 20 years.
Now think about this, they cancelled an entire season. Fans could not watch one single game of their beloved sport, no playoffs, no championship, just a future trivia question. What year did the NHL not compete? or a trick question who won the Stanley cup in 2005?
Any way back to the BULLSHIT, and I am not just picking on the NHL but all pro sports. If they think that hurt their lifestyle, not getting a raise that is. What would happen to their beloved jobs? If ALL THE FANS took one whole year off. No season ticket holders, no ticket sales, no merchandise sales, no endorsements . Because for one year the rest of the world doesn't care about their freaking sport. I am talking all sports, any pro athlete that thinks he has a right to strike for more money... it's ridiculous.
Well I'll tell you what would happen if the rest of the world took off from their sport... Severe financial losses for each franchise, staff and players, competitors or drivers. That is what would happen, Billions of dollars would be lost.
You tell me...
TDK
2005 - The National Hockey League cancelled its entire season after a five-month lockout.
I think it is bullshit when pro athletes STRIKE for more money, benefits or whatever. When you make hundreds of thousands of dollars per year to PLAY your favorite sport. I think it is bullshit that they dare strike. I know recently Baseball has done it and Football in the past 20 years.
Now think about this, they cancelled an entire season. Fans could not watch one single game of their beloved sport, no playoffs, no championship, just a future trivia question. What year did the NHL not compete? or a trick question who won the Stanley cup in 2005?
Any way back to the BULLSHIT, and I am not just picking on the NHL but all pro sports. If they think that hurt their lifestyle, not getting a raise that is. What would happen to their beloved jobs? If ALL THE FANS took one whole year off. No season ticket holders, no ticket sales, no merchandise sales, no endorsements . Because for one year the rest of the world doesn't care about their freaking sport. I am talking all sports, any pro athlete that thinks he has a right to strike for more money... it's ridiculous.
Well I'll tell you what would happen if the rest of the world took off from their sport... Severe financial losses for each franchise, staff and players, competitors or drivers. That is what would happen, Billions of dollars would be lost.
You tell me...
TDK
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Off Duty Cop Distracts the Trench Coat Teen
An off duty police officer distracts the teen and limits his free reign of shooting. With someone else shooting he is now a target. This helped slow and restrict the gunman's movement until the on duty police force could show up.
A special thanks to a guy who takes his work not just home but every where with him.
To bad this hero, couldn't take the "kill shot" himself and leave nothing but paperwork for the on duty boys.
You Tell ME!
TDK
A special thanks to a guy who takes his work not just home but every where with him.
To bad this hero, couldn't take the "kill shot" himself and leave nothing but paperwork for the on duty boys.
You Tell ME!
TDK
Trench Coat Teen, Shot at the Mall
And if you ask me this is what we need more of (post title is a link to the article). And to me the age is even more irrelevant. Did I forget to mention that this 18 year old, in a trench coat, happened to be carrying a shotgun and shooting people? Yep 5 dead, and 4 others wounded.
A SWAT team in Utah, acted as Judge, Jury and Executioner. Reminds me of, Sylvester Stallone's 1995 movie, JUDGE DREDD.
And why not? This is not a cop killing a thug in a dark alley with nobody around. That is a situation we want to avoid getting into. That could get into some controversial and wrongful death cases. This is a teen, as I said age doesn't matter, who went into a mall and opened fire with a shotgun, randomly killing people. I don't care if it was a 15 year old or 50 year old. You walk into that mall, and first get his attention to distract him from his rampage. Then shoot him in the head, yes a "kill" shot. There is no need to tie up our court system with this type of scum who has committed a crime in public against the public. Whether there is 20 people present or hundreds of people present. This person is caught in the act, killing American citizens. To me that voids your right to a fair and speedy trial. Well not really I guess, it will be fair, you get what you gave, and it is fast. You would be sentenced while still holding you weapon.
But you say his family will miss him, they would want him in jail. Well so will the families of those he shot at the mall. They will miss those who he killed. What do I say to this 18 year old's family, I am not sure, but I think you failed as parents. I do not feel a bit sorry for you or your loss. My sympathy is for those victims and families of those who your teen shot. Innocent people shopping in the mall, those are the people who deserve the sympathy here.
My congrats to the Salt Lake City PD.
Innocent people lost and a teen rightfully dead.
You tell me...
TDK.
A SWAT team in Utah, acted as Judge, Jury and Executioner. Reminds me of, Sylvester Stallone's 1995 movie, JUDGE DREDD.
And why not? This is not a cop killing a thug in a dark alley with nobody around. That is a situation we want to avoid getting into. That could get into some controversial and wrongful death cases. This is a teen, as I said age doesn't matter, who went into a mall and opened fire with a shotgun, randomly killing people. I don't care if it was a 15 year old or 50 year old. You walk into that mall, and first get his attention to distract him from his rampage. Then shoot him in the head, yes a "kill" shot. There is no need to tie up our court system with this type of scum who has committed a crime in public against the public. Whether there is 20 people present or hundreds of people present. This person is caught in the act, killing American citizens. To me that voids your right to a fair and speedy trial. Well not really I guess, it will be fair, you get what you gave, and it is fast. You would be sentenced while still holding you weapon.
But you say his family will miss him, they would want him in jail. Well so will the families of those he shot at the mall. They will miss those who he killed. What do I say to this 18 year old's family, I am not sure, but I think you failed as parents. I do not feel a bit sorry for you or your loss. My sympathy is for those victims and families of those who your teen shot. Innocent people shopping in the mall, those are the people who deserve the sympathy here.
My congrats to the Salt Lake City PD.
Innocent people lost and a teen rightfully dead.
You tell me...
TDK.
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
9 Year Old Runs Away by Plane
I think there are several issues here. And yep the title is a link to the article.
1) The kid "REALLY" wants out of the current living situation he is in. Whether it is fear of the sex offender or he just doesn't like the state of Washington or some other reason. I was reading the forum attached with this story and people seem outraged. Taking shots at the kids discipline at home and that he should go to military school. I say quit criticizing him and his parent for just a minute and think about what he went through to accomplish what he did. This kid may be a story teller, and a brat you might say. However I also see a natural born leader.
2) Did his driving really endanger anyone if he did not draw enough attention to get pulled over? Think of how easy it is to get pulled over at your age, I am 32 and was pulled over last summer. It happens to many adults who know the rules of the road and so on. From what I have read in other post here, he drove 4 stolen cars without being pulled over. And if the police were trying to pull him over, how does a 9 year old evade capture from a police chase? We see this on COPS every night.
3) He convinced officials at an airport, that screen for terrorism among other things. And got his way on a plane.
4) He may have broken the law, been deceptive and even lied, the qualities of a future politician. On a positive note, this kid has a amazing ability to plan, organize and execute. These are things that many adults can't do.
5) I say this kid has a real future in anything that he wants and somebody needs to start grooming him for it. Maybe his parents and grandparents should get together and discuss living conditions for him, maybe living in Texas is the answer, we all know he is willing to try very hard to be there. Maybe that could be his incentive to do well.
6) I have done my share of traveling. I was probably 30 years old the first time I drove into O'Hare and put myself on a plane. I had been on a plane probably 12 times before that and I at 30 years old was nervous and unsure about going to an airport and going thru the routine without someone to go thru it with. And here is a 9 year old, that not only did it alone, but got a free ride out of it. Don't get me wrong I was more than capable, but still nervous. I was also not trying to get by without a ticket, he not only tried but succeeded twice. Like Meat Loaf said 2 out of 3 ain't bad.
7) I am not saying that I agree with what the little kid did, but I am saying that he is going to require some creative guidance & molding to keep his attention. I feel he will be quickly bored with traditional disciplinary actions and would only rebel against those who try to tone or change his thinking rather than molding his natural born abilities of adventure, leadership, forwardness, fearlessness. HE IS 9 YEARS OLD. I am intrigued enough, that I would like to know, how he planned to contact grandpa, once he got to Dallas. Also why not car, cab or bus from San Antonio to Dallas, I mean at this point he was 90% thru his travel itinerary.
You tell me!
TDK
1) The kid "REALLY" wants out of the current living situation he is in. Whether it is fear of the sex offender or he just doesn't like the state of Washington or some other reason. I was reading the forum attached with this story and people seem outraged. Taking shots at the kids discipline at home and that he should go to military school. I say quit criticizing him and his parent for just a minute and think about what he went through to accomplish what he did. This kid may be a story teller, and a brat you might say. However I also see a natural born leader.
2) Did his driving really endanger anyone if he did not draw enough attention to get pulled over? Think of how easy it is to get pulled over at your age, I am 32 and was pulled over last summer. It happens to many adults who know the rules of the road and so on. From what I have read in other post here, he drove 4 stolen cars without being pulled over. And if the police were trying to pull him over, how does a 9 year old evade capture from a police chase? We see this on COPS every night.
3) He convinced officials at an airport, that screen for terrorism among other things. And got his way on a plane.
4) He may have broken the law, been deceptive and even lied, the qualities of a future politician. On a positive note, this kid has a amazing ability to plan, organize and execute. These are things that many adults can't do.
5) I say this kid has a real future in anything that he wants and somebody needs to start grooming him for it. Maybe his parents and grandparents should get together and discuss living conditions for him, maybe living in Texas is the answer, we all know he is willing to try very hard to be there. Maybe that could be his incentive to do well.
6) I have done my share of traveling. I was probably 30 years old the first time I drove into O'Hare and put myself on a plane. I had been on a plane probably 12 times before that and I at 30 years old was nervous and unsure about going to an airport and going thru the routine without someone to go thru it with. And here is a 9 year old, that not only did it alone, but got a free ride out of it. Don't get me wrong I was more than capable, but still nervous. I was also not trying to get by without a ticket, he not only tried but succeeded twice. Like Meat Loaf said 2 out of 3 ain't bad.
7) I am not saying that I agree with what the little kid did, but I am saying that he is going to require some creative guidance & molding to keep his attention. I feel he will be quickly bored with traditional disciplinary actions and would only rebel against those who try to tone or change his thinking rather than molding his natural born abilities of adventure, leadership, forwardness, fearlessness. HE IS 9 YEARS OLD. I am intrigued enough, that I would like to know, how he planned to contact grandpa, once he got to Dallas. Also why not car, cab or bus from San Antonio to Dallas, I mean at this point he was 90% thru his travel itinerary.
You tell me!
TDK
Friday, February 02, 2007
School House Rock or School House Shot
When many of us as kids in the 70's and 80's remember School House Rock; Lolly get your adverbs here, Conjuction Junction what's your function, and I am just a "Bill". These are all memories now and you no longer see them on Saturday mornings. Ah, the good ole days.
Well for girls in Texas, they will be looking back remembering their School House Shot.
Headline on MSN today: Texas governor orders STD vaccine for all girls.
Quote from the article;
By employing an executive order, Perry sidestepped opposition in the Legislature from conservatives and parents’ rights groups who fear such a requirement would condone premarital sex and interfere with the way Texans raise their children.
Beginning in September 2008, girls entering the sixth grade — meaning, generally, girls ages 11 and 12 — will have to receive Gardasil, Merck & Co.’s new vaccine against strains of the human papillomavirus, or HPV.
Unquote. (click on post title for full story)
I am sure the conservatives and parents' rights activists will have plenty to say about this. If you ask me, which you don't have to cause it is my post. I think it is a good idea. What we are talking about here is preventing a disease. The issue of how it is transmitted is less relevant if you ask me. If this in fact is a vaccine works, it should slow or help prevent STD's. Something that is transmitted in an act, that most parents have little or no knowledge that their kids are participating in, the act of SEX.
I am sure there are some parents that walked up hills both ways to school in the snow, that would say, "Let them learn it the hard way." I would hope not, but it does take all types to make the world go round. However, what would concern you more as a parent? Your child coming home from school saying; "I was vaccinated for STD's at school today." or "I think I have acquired an STD."
You tell me...
TDK
Well for girls in Texas, they will be looking back remembering their School House Shot.
Headline on MSN today: Texas governor orders STD vaccine for all girls.
Quote from the article;
By employing an executive order, Perry sidestepped opposition in the Legislature from conservatives and parents’ rights groups who fear such a requirement would condone premarital sex and interfere with the way Texans raise their children.
Beginning in September 2008, girls entering the sixth grade — meaning, generally, girls ages 11 and 12 — will have to receive Gardasil, Merck & Co.’s new vaccine against strains of the human papillomavirus, or HPV.
Unquote. (click on post title for full story)
I am sure the conservatives and parents' rights activists will have plenty to say about this. If you ask me, which you don't have to cause it is my post. I think it is a good idea. What we are talking about here is preventing a disease. The issue of how it is transmitted is less relevant if you ask me. If this in fact is a vaccine works, it should slow or help prevent STD's. Something that is transmitted in an act, that most parents have little or no knowledge that their kids are participating in, the act of SEX.
I am sure there are some parents that walked up hills both ways to school in the snow, that would say, "Let them learn it the hard way." I would hope not, but it does take all types to make the world go round. However, what would concern you more as a parent? Your child coming home from school saying; "I was vaccinated for STD's at school today." or "I think I have acquired an STD."
You tell me...
TDK
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